- John 12:24 – “ UNLESS A KERNEL OF WHEAT FALLS TO THE GROUND AND DIES…

Death isn’t always in the obvious… It isn’t always in the physical or the visual…. But can often times be found in the deepest sacred parts of our inner man.

Many times we smile… laugh… adapt to the mirage in our social realm….though inwardly walk around as dead men… Numb to actually feeling any type of emotion other than the broken aftermath that lingers in our soul. We dissconnect ourselves from our reality…remove ourselves from the pain…. and make it a habitual routine to disconnect ourselves from any future person..place…or situation that may in turn cause any opportunity for hurt…

This Brokeness feels like inner death..and for those of you who know what Im talking about you know what I mean when I say it hurts to even breath… with the sun rise comes yet another 24 hour internal hell….you turn to your alarm clock, take hold of your pillow and inwardly cry those deep calls to deep….why LOrddd ??

I can’t say Im an authority on the character of God ..Im definately in Love with him and his character.. he has and continues to be that story that gets better and better with every turning of the page ….what I can say Iv’e had the opportunity to be very intimate with would be the matter of personal death relating to the refining of God and what C.S Lewis liked to call the ” Problem of pain “…

The invaluable lessons Iv’e learned from the Lord have only been birthed in and through the intense fire of deep inner pain and brokenness. And although painful… it is only through the Fire of Life that I have felt any type of refining and Inner growth being done in my person.

Let’s face it…we live in a time where everything is easily accessable as well as disposable…with the push of a button or the touch of a screen we can pretty much have anything we want anytime we want and when we get bored Toss…Bounce and on to the next…

Humanity will spend entire life times using and being used…Living in a world like this requires a tough skin…the ability to face many forms of rejections…many forms of usery…We live in a time where words mean nothing…while actions mean everything…where people will say and do whatever they need in order to obtain the object of their desire…and although it is not Flesh and Blood we fight against but spirits and principalities..the heart is still pierced by the betrayal of a brother, a lover or supposed friend…

That being said…the Walk of the Narrow… is not one for the weak… a Follower of Christ takes perserverance, many times of picking ourselves up from the mire and with the strength of God enduring what we need to endure at the time emotionally to eventually end up where God is calling us…

Death may come in many forms….the death of a loved one…a relationship….a dream…but whatever the form may be, be encouraged that through this hardship is an abundance of God’s grace waiting for us on the other side….It’s during these hardships that we as people do one of two things…harden our hearts or melt in the arms of an Almighty God…It’s through our brokeness that he like a shepard to a lamb can take us to his bosum, hold us near to his heart and in his gracious Love nurse us back to spiritual health…It’s through death that we ultimately find life …. and the life we find is only found in the Loving arms of a Loving God…

- John 12:24 – “ UNLESS A KERNEL OF WHEAT FALLS TO THE GROUND AND DIES…IT REMAINS ONLY A ( SINGLE ) SEED…BUT IF IT DIES… IT PRODUCES A HARVEST….”